Λυκόφως

In lamest terms 'Sassenach' means: Sassenach [sas-uh-nuh kh, -nak]   Word Origin noun 1. an English inhabitant of the British Isles: used, often disparagingly, by the Gaelic inhabitants. An outlander.  Well yes, maybe I am influenced by this book series - or the tv series altogether. But in broadest terms, an outlander is someone who doesn't belong, an outsider, an alien, a weirdo - as people might call them in pop culture. The summer flowed through a great depression. It seems to be ruling over me still. Mostly cause there came a point in my life when I realized how to spot the honest ones with the not-so-honest ones. It was sad, and gruelling and it had a lot of angst and tears involved, as could there not be.  I am an Outlander . This is how the people in my life made me feel. A stranger to myself. I don't know where it all started. No, no. Stop lying to yourself. You do know where it started. You just didn't want to admit it to

Everything happened so soon.  Life runs in circles. It almost feels endless sometimes. There are evenings such as these that I remember you. Nostalgia slithers up on my flaky skin and makes me shudder. I have no regrets or remorse for the past. It's done. It happened. It's gone. No reason to look back now. No. Life did go on. And it's sweet still. Somtimes lonesome and tedious, but sweet. The starry sky is full of promises tonight. Full of new possibilities and renewals. The 'one' lurks somewhere there. Lingers in the shadows, perhaps. The heart is a funny thing.  It doesn't always work when you want her to. A thing you once thought you wanted, now feels strange and distant. Such an irony, timing! It's all about taking that leap of faith. Friday night. Curling up by the sofa with a good book. Classical music sways in the background. Something familiar. Tchaikovsky. Swan Lake. The waltz.  Makes you teleport. Vienna. Music halls.